Once you fall asleep, you don’t get to choose whatever happens after that. Unlike enjoying a hobby, or hanging out with people, which are activities that I can choose the extent or intensity of what or how I do things.

I can’t even decide if I get a good night’s sleep, nor am I able to tell for sure if I would ever wake up from an intended short nap. 

Babies sleep for many hours a day and most of them grow up needing less hours of sleep. I don’t seem to have outgrown that stage. The demands of being a grown up force me to sleep less hours, but that have not taken away my hope to one day sleep back all the hours I have missed, if I may put it that way. đŸ’¤đŸ˜´